Off the rails

A measure, perhaps, of my dislocation that for an instance, an aberration of McEwan, I saw you upended. Buried, head first and up to your waist. But in my mind – and there was no saying as to the health and strength of that! – you’d not arrived there violently, but had ...

... no you could not have done, not achieved the age denoted by the sag and wrinkle of your buttocks, without suffering in one way or another.

But at least, I reassured myself, our love had endured, hadn’t it? No loss of trust –

– only to be immediately proved a liar for, beyond you, in this bizarre mental journey through my past, and just as unkindly displayed, was ... I can’t, even now, say his name, not with you so close.

So was I to end my journey here? Between the two of you? If so, which way should I face? Ah, but ... it wouldn’t be my face, would it? Which made it easy.
Because he always took me from behind.

[Canvas prompt: a photograph by Josh Box from House of Writers]